Lamentations 3:22-23
The Lord's lovingkindnesses indeed never cease, For His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; Great is your faithfulness. (NASB)
It is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. (KJV)
His mercies are new every morning.
According to the notes in my study Bible, Lamentations conveys the idea of "loud cries". Loud cries have indeed been what I have been in the midst of the past couple of weeks. Back in January, our agency told us to be cautiously optimistic about traveling to meet our kids this week. Our case had been rolling along very smoothly. The birth father had made appearances at an embassy interview and at court and we were waiting on the next step which would be our court date-where we take legal custody of our children. Then we hit a wall. The letter that is typically issued after birth parent court was not issued. This is pretty much unprecedented so our agency is currently trying to accommodate all requests of the ET government in an effort to get us to the next step. The uncertainty of the situation is consuming. It weighs on me like a pile of bricks. It hurts.
I went back through my prayer journal and some of my blog posts this week. Through this process I was reminded of how much the Lord has worked in this adoption already. So many things could not have happened already to this point if His hand was not in it. Great is Thy faithfulness. I was also reminded by a post that I made a couple of weeks ago about praising Him in the hallway. We are definitely staring at a closed door right now and are in the middle of a hallway. So I need to heed my own advice. Thy compassions they fail not.
What do I praise Him for? I think of our two children who currently are living in an institution away from any family -they know there is a family across the ocean that wants them but hasn't come for them yet. They go to bed without a mom to tuck them in. I think of all the corruption that bad agencies have capitalized on in the country-making it hard for the ethical agencies to work without being lumped in to the mess. I think of people who do not have the best interest of the children in mind, but are concerned with reputation, money, or power. I think of the more than 147 million orphans in the world. What do I praise Him for?
I praise Him for this hallway. It has reminded me that His mercies ARE new every morning. All I need Thy hand hath provided. The simple fact that I am awake and drinking coffee and typing this are mercies. The King James translation tells us that it is because of His mercies that we are not consumed. Not. Consumed. If I got what I deserved, I would be consumed in a pit of fire for eternity. Only because of His mercies am I alive. Only because of His mercies did He choose to save me. Only because of His mercies are our children in an institution-yes... this is a mercy. Only because of His mercies did we learn about them. Only because of His mercies did adoption-this roller coaster that rips your heart out and shoves it back in and rips it out again- get planted in our hearts. How dare I sit in self pity or worry or second guessing. Every breath we are given is a mercy. What we do with this breath should be praising Him for He has granted me Parden for sin and a peace that endureth...Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide; Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow..."
"Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father,
There is no shadow of turning with Thee;
Thou changest not, Thy compassions they fail not
As Thou hast been thou forever wilt be.
Great is Thy faithfulness! Great is Thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see;
All I have need Thy hand hath provided-
great is Thy faithfulness, Lord unto me
Summer and winter, and springtime and harvest,
Sun, moon, and stars in their courses above,
join with all nature in manifold witness
To Thy great faithfulness, mercy and love
Parden for sin and a peace that endureth,
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide;
Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow,
Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside! "
Summer and Winter and springtime and harvest